Thursday, November 29, 2012

Why I can't take breaks

About a month ago I decided to take a week off of my Power90 workout routine.  Today, I finally went back to it.  This is why I can't take breaks.  I can't just skip a week and get back into it.  I just throw all routine out the window.  It is too easy for me to just continue to blow it off.  So today I made myself do it.  It would have been much easier to say no, I want to play with me new computer, or I should do some work on my homework.  But I did it, I pushed play and now my arms are so sore!

I will get back into it and get back to the progress I was making!  I have to, my pants are starting to get a little tight!

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Checking In - Power 90 Day 4

A few things I have noticed after 4 days of Power 90:

1. I'm amazed that the cardio seems to be more difficult overall than the sculpt workout since most of what I have been doing for exercise is running/cardio.

2. This is especially true at the beginning of the cardio workout. There are a ton of different leg lifts and my legs are screaming by the end of this.

3. Tony Horton cracks me up.  Seriously, he is kinda might get old, but right it is still funny!

4. The beginning of the cardio workout has some power yoga moves which includes some planks and then lowering yourself to the ground. This was almost impossible for me on day two because my triceps were so sore from the first day of sculpt. This was not the case was much easier.

5. Abs are definitely my downfall and will be the hardest thing for me to do the entire 90 days, I'm almost sure of it. That said, I was able to complete much more of the ab portion today than I was two days ago!

Still loving these videos, but already curious what Phase 3 and 4 will bring.

Eating right is my biggest hang-up with losing weight. That said, I have done very good this week avoiding sweets like doughnuts, cupcakes, tootsie rolls and ice cream treats. I usually crave these things and pig out once my kids are in bed at night, but this week, nothing. No cravings, no wanting to pig out...just another sign that I'm truly in the game this time. Now to make sure I don't fizzle out like I have done every time in the past!

I'm actually having some trouble getting enough calories in a day!  Here is my report for today.  Must find a healthy 200 calorie snack, quick!

Monday, August 27, 2012

Power 90 - 2 days in

Welp, two days into the Power 90, and I just have to say I am awesome...(said in the voice of Barney in How I Met your Mother).  I was really scared that this was going to be too difficult for me, but I guess I am in better shape than I thought I was.  Granted, I was sore after Day 1, which is the strength workout, I will be sore again tomorrow after the cardio and abs workout.  But I did it!!  I didn't to every single rep, and sometimes I had to do the modified version...mostly because it involved jumping, which my shins don't appreciate very much....but I did it!!  Also, in week 1 they tell you to take it easy, learn the moves, and don't try to kill yourself, or you will get too sore to continue or get discouraged.

And on top of that, I have had two great days of eating in a row.  Along with my Power 90 DVDs came some great information about eating right and it even has a few basic recipies!  I spent a good hour or two cooking up tons of chicken cutting, chopping and shredding it to prepare for this week and the weeks to come by freezing some of the chicken.

And finally, for amazing fact number 3....I have prepared not just my lunch for tomorrow, but also my breakfast...TWO DAYS IN A ROW!!!  I never do this.  But folks, I mean business this time around.  We are going to KICK those last 35 pounds....

As promised here is my "before" picture for the Power90.  I can't believe I am sharing this awful, full-bodied, non-gut sucking, tight fitting exercise clothes picture on this blog....I can only imagine what I would have looked like in something like this at my heaviest weight....but goes....

Ew.  Can wait to start seeing results from Power 90 and watching what I eat!

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Aiming for a Cure 5k Race

I ran my first 5k since June yesterday.  I ran this same race last year. I signed up last year because they said it was a flat course.  However, the day of the race, I found out that whoever decided that was a flat course was blind and riding in a car when they said it!  It was far from flat.  I went back this year because it is for a great cause.  They raise money to help local children who are battling cancer.  

The morning didn't start out the best when was I running late and then when I got there I found out that my online registration apparently didn't go through, so I became a "day of" registrant and got stuck with the regular t-shirt instead of the one I paid $5 extra for.  It was a really cool shirt, but I was there for the cause, not the shirt, so I considered it an extra $5 donation.

So the race began.  Some how I found myself at the front of the starting line, which isn't really where I wanted to be, because I am not the die-hard runner that the people at the front are, and lots of people passed me, which was just fine with me.  I was doing pretty good and had a pretty good pace going.  At one point at the beginning I found myself being that goal person.  You know, that person you see and think "I'm in better shape than her, if she can run, so can I...there is no way that short, pudgy chick can beat me"   I'm pretty sure I was that person to the girl in front of me.  But that's ok....I've had that goal person that I just had to beat in a race too.  Funny thing is, about 5 minutes later, I passed her and never saw her again.... Take that taller, less pudgy chick!

The man that is the emcee of the race, or whatever you call that guy, said something last year before the race that has stuck with me all year long and I especially kept it in mind yesterday.  You see, last year he ran the race for the first time and he said every time it got hard, and he wanted to quit, he would just keep these children in mind that are fighting cancer, how much pain they are going through, and do it for them.  You can push through the pain...if they can, so can you.  Keeping that mantra in mind, I ran all the way to the turn around at the half way point....up 2 large hills and one or two smaller ones.  Then after running back up the first hill, I started making to start of the next hill then walk up the hill.  Then run to the water station....yummmm...water...that hit the spot.  Ok keep running....walking up the next hill....running....sheesh, that sun is HOT...walk until that sign up that another water station, sweet! run to the water station and walk while drinking....CRAP! not a water station, just some people trying to convince their kids to get back in the stroller....end is near, walk up the hill then run to the finish.....getting close...I can see the clock...40 minutes...WHAT? I thought I was doing so well.....

I finished in 40:40 according to the chipped timing.  I was surprised at how disappointed I felt.  I didn't have a real goal going into it.  I beat my last race time by about a minute or so.  I should be proud, right?  But I have done so much better.  And I felt like I was going at a pretty.  Granted I might have added a little distance to my race by maybe taking a wrong turn...some people were going left and some were going right...I'm not sure which was correct.  Maybe if I would have gone the other way I would have been under 40 minutes. Wish they would have marked that spot so people knew which way to go.

Once I got home and finished moping I went online and found the results from last year.  I finished in 43:36 so I beat my course time by almost 3 minutes.  That made me feel a little better.

So that was my race.  Considering doing the local color run in October, we'll see.  If I don't do that one, I have one more race in October.  Hopefully I can beat my time again, but we'll see.  I'm starting Power 90 tomorrow, which is supposed to be done 6 days a week, so I won't have time to run, although some of the videos are cardio.  If I don't beat my time, there is always next year.  Power 90 is much more important to me right now, and takes priority.

Tomorrow, I will be taking and post my before pictures for Power 90.

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Longest Plateau Ever!

I've got to be going on about 6 months of no weight loss.  If I would have stuck to my exercise and calorie goals perfectly I would be at my goal weight by now.  Did I really expect to be perfect? No.  But I would have thought I could have been close by now, not stuck at the half way mark.  I really want to lose this weight, but apparently I like food more.  I have no will power when it comes to food.  I can do really good for a few days - a week tops - and then it all comes crashing down.  

Luckily I have been much more consistent with exercising.  Far from perfect, but so much better than eating right.  The exercise is the only thing that has helped me to maintain the weight loss that I have accomplished.

So what now? Where do I go from here? I don't know what the answer is. I can try to eat better. I can try to be more aware of what I'm eating.  Do I really need it? Am I really hungry? Is this good for me? Is it worth ruining the calories burned while running today?

I'm at a point where I'm considering some of the weight loss supplements, but I know that is only temporary.  What happens when I quit taking them? I really want to be able to do this the natural way, so I can lose it and keep it off.  I have about 35 more pounds to go, but right now, I'd be ecstatic with 10.

My plan?  I ordered the Power90 exercise DVDs.  I can't wait to get them.  I'm hoping that program is the kick-start I need.  It comes with an eating plan and all of that, but I'm sure I won't follow the eating plan to the T, although I haven't seen it yet.  But it has some butt-kicking strength training DVDs to tone up and burn the fat.  I'm hoping to get some running in too, but I'll have to wait and see because I'm not sure what the workout schedule is for the DVDs.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Addicted to food?

Is there an AA meeting for food addicts? If there is, I think I need to find a local meeting.  I'm addicted to food, I can't think of any other reason for the way I eat some days.  I really want to lose weight, I know I need to eat better and exercise to do this.  Exercise isn't a problem.  Eating...well that depends on the day and what type of temptations are put in front of me.  Yesterday I ate two pieces of cake from Caiden's birthday cake from Olive Garden and a piece of Ice Cream cake, and I ended the day with a few graham crackers.  Oh, and I went to the cafeteria for lunch instead of eating my healthy lunch from home.

Today I did pretty well, stayed busy while at home. But then I went to class and got a muffin (instead of a giant cookie...) and a yogurt smoothie, which sounds healthy, but I'm not sure it is.  Other than those to things I did pretty good, but I didn't actually track what I ate.  Sometimes it is just too much work if you eat complicated things.

I need more self control. If I want to lose the weight, I need to quit eating so much crap. Period. This is not a difficult thing to understand - why is it so hard to do?

I have been doing pretty well with exercise. I got to go outside and run tonight, completed 3 miles, running 2 of them, which is part of the 5k in 5 weeks running program.

Status of Goals:
1. No pop/drink water. Day 1, 2, 3, 4 complete
2.  Exercise 5 days this week.  Day 1, 2, 3 complete
3.  Track my food. Day 1,2 complete

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

New 5k Training Program

I received an email yesterday that one of the 5ks I ran is last year is coming up at the end of August.  My goal this year has been to actually run an entire 5k by the October breast cancer run I do every year.  But after I got this email I thought, why not shoot for August?  I've been running off and on now for quite a while, it really should be too difficult.  So I googled 5k in 5 weeks and came up with this awesome plan from  The end of this program hits smack dab in the middle of my vacation plans, so I'm not sure I'll actually be able to do it all, but it is worth a try.  Hopefully I'll at least be able to run more than I have been able to in the past and maybe get another personal best.  Because of the heat, I'm doing this on the treadmill for  But I'm excited to have a game plan again, a schedule to follow to help me make progress.

Eating today, I did pretty well.  By chance, I ended up eating small meals about every 2-3 hours.  It felt like I was eating all of the time, but I actually liked it.  And by the time I got home, I still had enough calories to enjoy a pretty hearty brinner (breakfast for dinner!), complete with eggs and bacon!  And I had a small wedge of a cinnamon roll for dessert.  With my exercise, I only went over my calories by 17...not too bad, I'll take it.

All in all, great day today!  Here's to many more like it!

Monday, July 23, 2012

Moving in the right direction

Got on the scale today and saw something I haven't seen in a while. The scale going in the right direction again! Mondays are officially my weigh in days, so I am down 2 pounds since last week!!  Very encouraging since I was not perfect last week, especially when I hit the weekend.  Being home for a long period of time is always an issue for me and something I need to continue to work on.

Today I took the day off of work and spent a special day with my now 7 year old on his birthday.  I didn't eat great considering he wanted to go to McDonald's for lunch and then I wanted to take him to Orange Leaf (better than something like Dairy Queen though, right?)  If you haven't been to Orange Leaf, you gotta check it out.  So yummy and great during yet another heat wave! But it wasn't all eating...we went miniature golfing and spent some time a Chuck E Cheese too. 

Since I didn't go to work, I missed my weekly Boot Camp class over the lunch hour, so I played catch up tonight and did my circuit training routine that my personal coach gave me last year when I was meeting with a personal lord, was it really last year??

I didn't quite meet all of my goals last week, but I made a pretty good effort.  I'm going to keep the same goals this week:

Last week's goals:
1. No pop. COMPLETE!! I haven't had a pop in over a week, but I'm drinking a Rockstar every day instead. Better? Dunno, but I need to kick on habit at a time!
2. Exercise 5 days this week.  I did 2 strength training days and 2 running days I believe.  Close but no cigar!
3. Track my food:  Some days were better than others....especially by the time the weekend rolled around.

This week's goals:
1. No pop/drink water. I'm not sure how many glasses of water I have gotten in today, but not enough.
2.  Exercise 5 days this week.  Day 1 complete.
3.  Track my food. Day 1 complete

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Day off today

Today I took a day off from tracking everything that goes into my mouth.  I went to the farmers market and had a cupcake, I had a light mocha frapppchino from Starbucks, I had a flat bread sub from Subway for lunch and 4 pieces of spinach and mushroom pizza from Schwan's for supper.  And I'm not at all upset about it.  I need these stress free eating days where I'm not planning, tracking and analyzing every meal and snack I have.

I haven't done any official exercise today, but I walked around the farmers market for an hour this morning, then went school supply shopping at Target and WalMart, then tonight when on a walk to the local park, pushing the little guy in the stroller.

Tomorrow I will pay a little more attention to eating healthy things, but I'm not sure I'll track it.  I'll go back to tracking on Monday for sure though. Can't stop much more than that, or I'll quit forever, again!

Friday, July 20, 2012

Cookies...nom nom nom

That's me today...the cookie monster....or just the food monster in general.  Today, I'm too tired to care that much. I didn't have time to pack a lunch so I had tacos with beef, sour cream and cheese on it for lunch...and even added a few sugar free chocolate chip cookies for dessert. One sliver of brightness, I did resist the urge of having a pop with all of that.

For dinner I had a turkey burger on Sara Lee Thin Style buns and some watermelon and a few frosted animal crackers.  I would like some more of those frosted cookies, or the watermelon, or the burger...really anything.  This is how I get...I do good for a week, then decide it is a pain in the ass, it is too much work and all of the junk food is a lot better.  I just want to be able to eat what I want, when I want, is that too much to ask??

I'm also not exercising tonight. I just don't have it in me.  I don't know how single moms do it.  After almost 2 weeks of doing it all on my own, I'm exhausted.  I have exercised 4 days in a row, I think my body need a break.

So, if I don't eat anymore, I won't do too bad for the night.  Over my 1200 cals, but still within an acceptable range I think.  But unless I go to bed as soon as I finish this post, I'm not sure how likely it is I won't eat anymore....mmmmmm....frosted animal cookies.......
Maybe this will help quiet the monster in me

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Beautiful Night for a Run!

The exercise gods finally smiled down on me tonight and aligned everything to make a perfect night for running on a night I could actually go out!  It cooled down a little bit today, I finished class early and hubby was home so I could actually exercise outside of the house tonight.  I ran about 2 miles straight before I had to walk....if it wasn't for the stupid hill I could have probably kept going, but I didn't want to push it too much, I still had to make it home! But between dodging the sprinklers and getting a bug in my eye, it was a pretty good run!

I also did pretty good eating today, and I had multiple opportunities to fail.  First opportunity was going to the cafeteria at work for lunch which never ends in a healthy lunch.  Instead, I stuck with what I brought for lunch - chicken salad on light whole wheat bread and carrots.  Not as sexy or appealing as the pizza my co-worker had, but oh well.  Second opportunity was coming home from work early.  Usually I take these days as a opportunity to scout out anything yummy and eat it all up while I'm home alone.  Today, I had might light kettle corn popcorn and a glass of water.  Final opportunity was the coffee shop at school, where I usually get some kind of not healthy smoothie, 4 cheese wrap and some chips and/or cookie...tonight I got a chef's salad with light ranch dressing, a bottle of water and a bag of salt and vinegar chips.  Perfect? Absolutely not, but much improved? YA BETCHA!!

Final report for the day

According to the website, if I keep it up like this I will be down about 6 pounds in 5 weeks. Doesn't sound like much, but when the scale hasn't been moving for about 6 months, I'll take it!

Wednesday, July 18, 2012


I can do this!  Today I went out to each for lunch.  I didn't eat great, but it was delish!  I had a turkey sandwich with granny smith apples, cheddar cheese, bacon and apple butter...with a glass of water.  I think I could drool just thinking about it....that wouldn't have been awful on its own, but I just couldn't resist the fries. Fries are one of my downfalls.

But I can't completely deny just doesn't work for me.  So to offset my lunch, I just had a salad for dinner.  And without exercise, I'm only over 244 calories....and I plan to do some circuit training after my elder child goes to bed, so with some hard work, I can stay within my calorie range today, even with the awful lunch!

This is so encouraging to me for a couple of reasons.  It goes to show that you can eat what you want once and a while, it isn't the end of the world.  It also shows I can stick to my guns because I had water instead of a pop not just a lunch but this afternoon when my butt was draggin' and I just wanted something with a little boost.

Last I ate a healthy Schwan's pizza instead of the yummy mac & cheese with hotdogs the kiddos were eating, tonight I had a salad instead of grilled cheese.

Exhausted tonight, but going to get my exercise in before bed...I have goals to meet!

Goals for this week:
1. No pop.  check!!
2. Exercise 5 days this week.  still going strong; 2 strength after tonight, 1 cardio!
3. Track my food:  check

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Better day today

Say what? If you read yesterday you would have thought I actually had a pretty good day...and I did at the time I wrote my post.  Then I put the boys to bed, and the bad habit came out.  Snacking.  I had already used up my calories for the night, but I didn't care...I just couldn't say no to the snack.  So I ate, and ate, and ate.  Ugh I was disgusted with myself when I was done.  So I went back and added my foods into my food journal for the day, after all, my goal this week is really just to focus on logging what I eat, not necessarily attain my calorie goals...that is just an added bonus.  So the final - not impressed with myself. 

Tonight, I'm snacking too, but only because I earned it.  Heck it was the most driving factor in getting my butt off the couch and onto the treadmill.  And after I'm done with my snack and writing this post, I'm taking a shower and going to bed, so I'm fairly confident I will not be eating any more.  My report for the day is to the right. 

I very much dislike the treadmill these days, but it has been WAY too hot to run outside.  To shake it up I tried one of the incline/speed program on my treadmill.  It kicked my butt! I can't believe I didn't even burn 200 calories! I guess it depends on what you look at. My treadmill said under 200 calories (I'm not even sure what it said), My Fitness Pal says 165 calories, and my Nike+ said 269 cals burned.  I'm inclined to go with the Nike+ because it actually tracks my movement, and of course because it is a better number!

Goals for this week:
1. No pop.  check!
2. Exercise 5 days this week.  check!
3. Track my food:  check!
Two days and going strong! Good night everyone!


Monday, July 16, 2012

For the Next Month

I vow to blog everyday. Even if it is just to say I did well today, or I didn't do so hot today, I'm going to write something EVERY day until I go on vacation in August. This blog will be my weight loss journal.  I need to get my motivation back.  I need to get the scale moving again. One month from today is my 9th Anniversary.  When I started out this year, it was possible to hit my goal weight by my anniversary....I haven't even lost 5 pounds...I have maintained my current weight loss, but that's all.  I'm tired of saying "Oh well, I'll do better tomorrow."  Tomorrow is NOW...TODAY!.  I know I'm not going to be perfect, but I can do much better than I have been.

Goals for this week:
1. No pop.  One caffeinated beverage a day (coffee or Rockstar).  The rest is water or milk.
2. Exercise 5 days this week.  Ideally 3 days running, 2 days circuit training.  A challenge because it is too hot to run outside and the treadmill bores me to death.
3. Track my food:  Try to stay within calorie range, but for this week I want to make sure I track every single thing that I eat.

Day 1 and I have met all three goals!  I have drank 8 glasses of water, tracked what I have eaten and attended boot camp class offered by my work once a week.  As usual the class kicked my ass.  Will be sore tomorrow, that is a promise!

Not bad...

 On top of all of these health goals, I work full time, go to school one night a week and am currently a single mom during the work week.  Its not easy and I use this as an excuse.

I really want to lose this weight, but how the heck do I stay on track?  I get myself all hyped up and say I'm going to really do it this time, but then I week later I want to eat junk and just say screw it...I don't care today. Then one day turns into two, two into three and next thing I know it has been a month and I haven't lost a pound.

Hoping blogging everyday will help me stay on track...if I keep with blogging everyday!  I'm going to end today with an inspirational picture.