Thursday, July 26, 2012

Addicted to food?

Is there an AA meeting for food addicts? If there is, I think I need to find a local meeting.  I'm addicted to food, I can't think of any other reason for the way I eat some days.  I really want to lose weight, I know I need to eat better and exercise to do this.  Exercise isn't a problem.  Eating...well that depends on the day and what type of temptations are put in front of me.  Yesterday I ate two pieces of cake from Caiden's birthday cake from Olive Garden and a piece of Ice Cream cake, and I ended the day with a few graham crackers.  Oh, and I went to the cafeteria for lunch instead of eating my healthy lunch from home.

Today I did pretty well, stayed busy while at home. But then I went to class and got a muffin (instead of a giant cookie...) and a yogurt smoothie, which sounds healthy, but I'm not sure it is.  Other than those to things I did pretty good, but I didn't actually track what I ate.  Sometimes it is just too much work if you eat complicated things.

I need more self control. If I want to lose the weight, I need to quit eating so much crap. Period. This is not a difficult thing to understand - why is it so hard to do?

I have been doing pretty well with exercise. I got to go outside and run tonight, completed 3 miles, running 2 of them, which is part of the 5k in 5 weeks running program.

Status of Goals:
1. No pop/drink water. Day 1, 2, 3, 4 complete
2.  Exercise 5 days this week.  Day 1, 2, 3 complete
3.  Track my food. Day 1,2 complete

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

New 5k Training Program

I received an email yesterday that one of the 5ks I ran is last year is coming up at the end of August.  My goal this year has been to actually run an entire 5k by the October breast cancer run I do every year.  But after I got this email I thought, why not shoot for August?  I've been running off and on now for quite a while, it really should be too difficult.  So I googled 5k in 5 weeks and came up with this awesome plan from  The end of this program hits smack dab in the middle of my vacation plans, so I'm not sure I'll actually be able to do it all, but it is worth a try.  Hopefully I'll at least be able to run more than I have been able to in the past and maybe get another personal best.  Because of the heat, I'm doing this on the treadmill for  But I'm excited to have a game plan again, a schedule to follow to help me make progress.

Eating today, I did pretty well.  By chance, I ended up eating small meals about every 2-3 hours.  It felt like I was eating all of the time, but I actually liked it.  And by the time I got home, I still had enough calories to enjoy a pretty hearty brinner (breakfast for dinner!), complete with eggs and bacon!  And I had a small wedge of a cinnamon roll for dessert.  With my exercise, I only went over my calories by 17...not too bad, I'll take it.

All in all, great day today!  Here's to many more like it!

Monday, July 23, 2012

Moving in the right direction

Got on the scale today and saw something I haven't seen in a while. The scale going in the right direction again! Mondays are officially my weigh in days, so I am down 2 pounds since last week!!  Very encouraging since I was not perfect last week, especially when I hit the weekend.  Being home for a long period of time is always an issue for me and something I need to continue to work on.

Today I took the day off of work and spent a special day with my now 7 year old on his birthday.  I didn't eat great considering he wanted to go to McDonald's for lunch and then I wanted to take him to Orange Leaf (better than something like Dairy Queen though, right?)  If you haven't been to Orange Leaf, you gotta check it out.  So yummy and great during yet another heat wave! But it wasn't all eating...we went miniature golfing and spent some time a Chuck E Cheese too. 

Since I didn't go to work, I missed my weekly Boot Camp class over the lunch hour, so I played catch up tonight and did my circuit training routine that my personal coach gave me last year when I was meeting with a personal lord, was it really last year??

I didn't quite meet all of my goals last week, but I made a pretty good effort.  I'm going to keep the same goals this week:

Last week's goals:
1. No pop. COMPLETE!! I haven't had a pop in over a week, but I'm drinking a Rockstar every day instead. Better? Dunno, but I need to kick on habit at a time!
2. Exercise 5 days this week.  I did 2 strength training days and 2 running days I believe.  Close but no cigar!
3. Track my food:  Some days were better than others....especially by the time the weekend rolled around.

This week's goals:
1. No pop/drink water. I'm not sure how many glasses of water I have gotten in today, but not enough.
2.  Exercise 5 days this week.  Day 1 complete.
3.  Track my food. Day 1 complete

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Day off today

Today I took a day off from tracking everything that goes into my mouth.  I went to the farmers market and had a cupcake, I had a light mocha frapppchino from Starbucks, I had a flat bread sub from Subway for lunch and 4 pieces of spinach and mushroom pizza from Schwan's for supper.  And I'm not at all upset about it.  I need these stress free eating days where I'm not planning, tracking and analyzing every meal and snack I have.

I haven't done any official exercise today, but I walked around the farmers market for an hour this morning, then went school supply shopping at Target and WalMart, then tonight when on a walk to the local park, pushing the little guy in the stroller.

Tomorrow I will pay a little more attention to eating healthy things, but I'm not sure I'll track it.  I'll go back to tracking on Monday for sure though. Can't stop much more than that, or I'll quit forever, again!

Friday, July 20, 2012

Cookies...nom nom nom

That's me today...the cookie monster....or just the food monster in general.  Today, I'm too tired to care that much. I didn't have time to pack a lunch so I had tacos with beef, sour cream and cheese on it for lunch...and even added a few sugar free chocolate chip cookies for dessert. One sliver of brightness, I did resist the urge of having a pop with all of that.

For dinner I had a turkey burger on Sara Lee Thin Style buns and some watermelon and a few frosted animal crackers.  I would like some more of those frosted cookies, or the watermelon, or the burger...really anything.  This is how I get...I do good for a week, then decide it is a pain in the ass, it is too much work and all of the junk food is a lot better.  I just want to be able to eat what I want, when I want, is that too much to ask??

I'm also not exercising tonight. I just don't have it in me.  I don't know how single moms do it.  After almost 2 weeks of doing it all on my own, I'm exhausted.  I have exercised 4 days in a row, I think my body need a break.

So, if I don't eat anymore, I won't do too bad for the night.  Over my 1200 cals, but still within an acceptable range I think.  But unless I go to bed as soon as I finish this post, I'm not sure how likely it is I won't eat anymore....mmmmmm....frosted animal cookies.......
Maybe this will help quiet the monster in me

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Beautiful Night for a Run!

The exercise gods finally smiled down on me tonight and aligned everything to make a perfect night for running on a night I could actually go out!  It cooled down a little bit today, I finished class early and hubby was home so I could actually exercise outside of the house tonight.  I ran about 2 miles straight before I had to walk....if it wasn't for the stupid hill I could have probably kept going, but I didn't want to push it too much, I still had to make it home! But between dodging the sprinklers and getting a bug in my eye, it was a pretty good run!

I also did pretty good eating today, and I had multiple opportunities to fail.  First opportunity was going to the cafeteria at work for lunch which never ends in a healthy lunch.  Instead, I stuck with what I brought for lunch - chicken salad on light whole wheat bread and carrots.  Not as sexy or appealing as the pizza my co-worker had, but oh well.  Second opportunity was coming home from work early.  Usually I take these days as a opportunity to scout out anything yummy and eat it all up while I'm home alone.  Today, I had might light kettle corn popcorn and a glass of water.  Final opportunity was the coffee shop at school, where I usually get some kind of not healthy smoothie, 4 cheese wrap and some chips and/or cookie...tonight I got a chef's salad with light ranch dressing, a bottle of water and a bag of salt and vinegar chips.  Perfect? Absolutely not, but much improved? YA BETCHA!!

Final report for the day

According to the website, if I keep it up like this I will be down about 6 pounds in 5 weeks. Doesn't sound like much, but when the scale hasn't been moving for about 6 months, I'll take it!

Wednesday, July 18, 2012


I can do this!  Today I went out to each for lunch.  I didn't eat great, but it was delish!  I had a turkey sandwich with granny smith apples, cheddar cheese, bacon and apple butter...with a glass of water.  I think I could drool just thinking about it....that wouldn't have been awful on its own, but I just couldn't resist the fries. Fries are one of my downfalls.

But I can't completely deny just doesn't work for me.  So to offset my lunch, I just had a salad for dinner.  And without exercise, I'm only over 244 calories....and I plan to do some circuit training after my elder child goes to bed, so with some hard work, I can stay within my calorie range today, even with the awful lunch!

This is so encouraging to me for a couple of reasons.  It goes to show that you can eat what you want once and a while, it isn't the end of the world.  It also shows I can stick to my guns because I had water instead of a pop not just a lunch but this afternoon when my butt was draggin' and I just wanted something with a little boost.

Last I ate a healthy Schwan's pizza instead of the yummy mac & cheese with hotdogs the kiddos were eating, tonight I had a salad instead of grilled cheese.

Exhausted tonight, but going to get my exercise in before bed...I have goals to meet!

Goals for this week:
1. No pop.  check!!
2. Exercise 5 days this week.  still going strong; 2 strength after tonight, 1 cardio!
3. Track my food:  check

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Better day today

Say what? If you read yesterday you would have thought I actually had a pretty good day...and I did at the time I wrote my post.  Then I put the boys to bed, and the bad habit came out.  Snacking.  I had already used up my calories for the night, but I didn't care...I just couldn't say no to the snack.  So I ate, and ate, and ate.  Ugh I was disgusted with myself when I was done.  So I went back and added my foods into my food journal for the day, after all, my goal this week is really just to focus on logging what I eat, not necessarily attain my calorie goals...that is just an added bonus.  So the final - not impressed with myself. 

Tonight, I'm snacking too, but only because I earned it.  Heck it was the most driving factor in getting my butt off the couch and onto the treadmill.  And after I'm done with my snack and writing this post, I'm taking a shower and going to bed, so I'm fairly confident I will not be eating any more.  My report for the day is to the right. 

I very much dislike the treadmill these days, but it has been WAY too hot to run outside.  To shake it up I tried one of the incline/speed program on my treadmill.  It kicked my butt! I can't believe I didn't even burn 200 calories! I guess it depends on what you look at. My treadmill said under 200 calories (I'm not even sure what it said), My Fitness Pal says 165 calories, and my Nike+ said 269 cals burned.  I'm inclined to go with the Nike+ because it actually tracks my movement, and of course because it is a better number!

Goals for this week:
1. No pop.  check!
2. Exercise 5 days this week.  check!
3. Track my food:  check!
Two days and going strong! Good night everyone!


Monday, July 16, 2012

For the Next Month

I vow to blog everyday. Even if it is just to say I did well today, or I didn't do so hot today, I'm going to write something EVERY day until I go on vacation in August. This blog will be my weight loss journal.  I need to get my motivation back.  I need to get the scale moving again. One month from today is my 9th Anniversary.  When I started out this year, it was possible to hit my goal weight by my anniversary....I haven't even lost 5 pounds...I have maintained my current weight loss, but that's all.  I'm tired of saying "Oh well, I'll do better tomorrow."  Tomorrow is NOW...TODAY!.  I know I'm not going to be perfect, but I can do much better than I have been.

Goals for this week:
1. No pop.  One caffeinated beverage a day (coffee or Rockstar).  The rest is water or milk.
2. Exercise 5 days this week.  Ideally 3 days running, 2 days circuit training.  A challenge because it is too hot to run outside and the treadmill bores me to death.
3. Track my food:  Try to stay within calorie range, but for this week I want to make sure I track every single thing that I eat.

Day 1 and I have met all three goals!  I have drank 8 glasses of water, tracked what I have eaten and attended boot camp class offered by my work once a week.  As usual the class kicked my ass.  Will be sore tomorrow, that is a promise!

Not bad...

 On top of all of these health goals, I work full time, go to school one night a week and am currently a single mom during the work week.  Its not easy and I use this as an excuse.

I really want to lose this weight, but how the heck do I stay on track?  I get myself all hyped up and say I'm going to really do it this time, but then I week later I want to eat junk and just say screw it...I don't care today. Then one day turns into two, two into three and next thing I know it has been a month and I haven't lost a pound.

Hoping blogging everyday will help me stay on track...if I keep with blogging everyday!  I'm going to end today with an inspirational picture.